Hey Guys!! Wow, I feel like I am bursting with STUFF to tell you!! AND AND AND!!
Finally, I'm getting organized enough to do the fun things I've wanted to!! So, if you have not yet signed up ----> to the right for my email list~ please do so. WHY? Well, I'm having a GIVEAWAY this week. So many of you have asked about the Betthany Frankel book, "Naturally Thin", that I am giving away a copy to the lucky random winner from my email list this week!! WOOT!! And hopefully, we'll be doing some fun giveaways every week. You will be seeing a whole new look to my website and I'll be including a lot more "stuff"- yes, still focusing on me and my fitness goals but also on nutrition and clean eating and staying motivated, positive and excited along the way. You in?? ;-)~ I am. I will announce the winner of the book on Sunday!!
I also wanted to tell you all how PSYCHED I am to be making so many good postitive changes in my life. I will share this all with you bit by bit so as not to overwhelm you- but the bottom line is, I really found myself becoming beyond normally obsessed with my fitness program. It was beyond an unhealthy way of thinking for both body and mind. I absolutely believe that we can lead a fit, healthy, positive life without being psychotic about it and rigid in eating. And at the same time, I believe that we are all 100% unique and each one of us will have a "way of life" in this regard that is "just right" for us. Not one program or "diet" will work for all of us, and it doesn't mean we are "wrong" if we choose one or the other. I was finding myself constantly berating myself for doing something "wrong" or "not enough" and everything about my life was taking a back seat. I don't want to LIVE like that. That's the key- and I had such an epiphany moment when I read that book, it opened my eyes to how ridiculously obsessed I have been trying to achieve perfection in diet and body.....
I love working out. I love all kinds of working out. I haven't been doing a lot of things that I like because 'it's not on the program'- that's crazy. I love Yoga. I love Pilates. I want to do some. I want to do some kickboxing. I want to continue training in the gym and blasting my upper body and my lower body when appropriate. But you know what? I also like circuits and Jay-style all over the place crazy-core killers. I want my body to have no idea what's coming next.
I also love healthy food. I don't fantasize about eating King Dons all day. But, I want to not freak out when I friend asks me to dinner. I want to not freak out when a guy asks me on a date because I'm worried I might eat RICE with sushi!! I don't want to obsess over whether that apple I ate the other day is making me store fat.That's not normal.
I truly, truly, finally feel like this is all coming together for me. My body has been through some serious medical CRAP the second half of last year, and then I've been punishing it/me to extremes with killer training and rigid dieting rules (and please, do not misunderstand me, this is about ME and my own mindset, NOT in any way saying that a typical comp prep training program and diet are 'bad' or wrong. I hate it when people say that. It's just not for me; I'm not going to compete. I like variety in my workouts and in my diet. And frankly, I firmly believe that this program, it was not working FOR ME. It's not what MY body needs. This is MY opinion. I could be wrong, but it's what I feel) that, combined with some serious serious STRESS and family drama- all that can take a toll.
It's time for me to LOVE my life again. And I do- I always have, but I've allowed my fitness goals to overtake reality. I'm not going to live in fear that I can't achieve perfection. I'm going to ENJOY every day I've been given. I'm going to stop the extremes in my diet, my diet 'behavior' and my poor self-image. I'm going to RELAX and be nicer to ME.
Overall, what does this mean? It means that - as you know, my diet has become more varied but also more CLEAN. I've cut out artificial sweeteners and fake chemical crap. But guess what? I'm having some healthy whole grains GASP! Carbs like Ezekiel Bread or Brown Rice Pasta- and in normal portion sizes. I'm going to have a dang glass of wine if I want to. I'm going to continue with what I've learned in the gym from Jay and from Jenny, and I'm also gonna do the things I love and want to try; spinning, kickboxing, yoga, pilates, riding my bike etc.
Life should be fun. Fitness should be fun. I want to bring the right BALANCE back in my life. And that's my biggest focus right now IS BALANCE. Balance in all things. Hopefully some of what I'm going through will help those of you that have written me recently make some changes for you!!
I also promise to not write long posts like THIS one again! Dang!!! Time for a bubble bath. Then I'm have a small filet mignon with spinach tonight, cappuccino for dessert!
ALSO who is using STS?I know I asked this before but would love to hear your feedback....and does anyone else have those exceedingly expensive Bowflex adjustable dumbells? I hate the idea of continuing to buy more dumbells..but $900?? Geez.